DAY ONE.... AGAIN

It's just dawning on me that I have the tendency to start strong and never finish. I have become so caught up in improving/changing/whatever, that I am incapacitated by failure. It's just dawning on me that I have to start over my starting over every day, because I inevitably have something go wrong which messes up my mood/attitude/day/whatever. The reality is, I DO need to start over every day, because every day I WILL have things get in my way, and I will inevitably fail/sin/whatever on some level. This may be nothing new to the world, but it's a freakin revelation of insight into myself. I'm screwed up....all I can do is try to do better. I get that far. Where I lose it is -I will fail. I will fall. I will say something I didn't mean. I will lose my temper. I will forget to do something. I will take something for granted. I will fall of the wagon on something I have just decided in my mind that I will NOT fall off the wagon for. I will do all of these things. It's not O.K., but it can be. In that same day, Christ will also be there, doing the same things he always does- appealing/dying/taking my sins. I am not who I want to be. I am only who I am right now, and I am defined by how I let Christ dwell in me and how I let him shine through me, and how I let him change who I am and who I will become. Like I said, revelations into me.