BEGINNING

Today feels strange, as if I am standing on the edge of something I can't see; there is a huge unknown right in front of me, and, try as I might, I can't see into it. I need to take the first step, and that may be all it takes to provide clarity, but it's always that first step, isn't it?
We have started down the road that ultimately will lead us to Nashville; we have announced our resignation, or, as I put it, our "moving on" (so as not to leave the leadership with questions to answer), and are trying to get ourselves submerged into new waters. The first problem has been needing both jobs and a place to live, when the apartments want proof of income to rent to you, and employers want proof of residence to hire you. What's wrong with this picture? I think that we've worked it out, though, and everything is going ahead. Yet in the back of my mind, a doubt has managed to linger (big surprise), and it's literally a day-to-day struggle to stay on-board with this whatever-it-is-God-wants-from-us plan.
Does anyone whom God chooses to do something unknown and new ever feel ready to do it? Am I more like Moses, or more like Thomas? Is it my mustard-seed-worth of faith, or my daily doubt that defines me? More questions than answers today.